I know I wasn't there. Then. When you needed me, yes. The only request you made of me, after so long, I could not help out with. Disappointed. Suffering. Pain. Rejection. I'm sure you felt it as harshly as I do right now. Being abandoned by the only one you trusted unconditionally must have been tough. You know it, and so do I. Are you unable to forgive? To forget? Why? It is not like you.
Can you believe it? I actually tried to blame you for all that has happened. Ha. Haha. I must be going crazy. So much of a physical and emotional need for you. So strong. Desperation going through my head. Things I shouldn't be thinking of just keep popping up. I truely have gone raving mad. A proper accomplishment, at last.